We had an amazing week! We spent many moments in deep prayer with thoughts of concern for this birth mother and her child that we presented our profile to. She had a very big decision to make.
As for us, we were feeling vulnerable. This was our very first “Yes” on this journey, and waiting for her answer back was grueling – I think I checked my email every five minutes for four days straight. We were also feeling the first hints of excitement! This process so far has been nothing short of boring with all of the paperwork to collect, appointments to sit through, money to save, and this was our first sign of LIFE! It’s been easy for us to focus on the tasks at hand – things we can have some control over – and forget that we will have another cute little family member at the end of it all! Logistically it all made sense and we were there, but as for our emotions, we had some catching up to do, and boy, did we do that this week. This birth mom wanted to match her child with a family who prioritized their lives surrounding three things: God, Sports, and Higher Education. I mean, come ONNNN! In our minds, that baby was a “Murray” already. 😉
But God had a different plan and after several days of thought and prayer, that mom made the decision to keep her baby. We are happy for her. Extremely happy. We will continue to pray for her and her circumstances, and that little girl due March 21st – she wasn’t meant to be a part of our family, but we hope that God used us somehow through this. I know that God is preparing us for the day when we will be matched with a “Yes”. And what a wonderful day that will be!
And meanwhile, we are thankful. Thankful for the prayers and support from our friends and family, and also thankful to The Lord who knows our baby already, knows his or her name, and birthday, and how many hairs are going to grow on it’s precious little head. And even though we thought maybe this could be “the one” to complete our family, we know that God has a better plan in mind and we are thankful for that.
“Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways, and my thoughts are higher than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:9
God has been so faithful throughout this entire process, with big things and small. One small thing happened to me yesterday while at work, after a meeting and a few moments after we learned that this baby was not ours, these flowers were delivered to my desk! Of course Hayes did not know the timing of our news and when I would need a bit of cheering up, but God did – and His timing is always perfect. Isn’t that true for our baby too? We are resting in His ways and His plan. And this part of his plan made me feel a bit like Reese Witherspoon in a romantic comedy! Thanks Hayes!